Another Attempt at Blogging

Well, I feel like getting my thoughts out in type again and just discovered that Blogger is now connected to Gmail, so I set up a Blogger.

I finished my Peace Corps Application! It's turned in! Yay! I'm really excited. Lori is not close to done with her application :(! Lori is struggling to feel motivated about anything, Peace Corps included, much less excited :(! This is the bittersweetness of my life loving someone with OCD and depression. To be excited to is to remind myself and her of how hard excitement is for her. To look forward to future plans is to remind us of how scary the future can feel for her. I feel like OCD is getting worse. i think it's getting worse before it gets better, not just getting worse. She's talking about and thinking about how she worries and checks and why she worries and checks. I think there have been some hard revelations and coming to terms with things for both of us. It's hard to see the work that needs to be done, but I suppose it would be even harder to go on not knowing. The work must be done one way or another and I am glad we are getting started, hard though it may be.

Jeff has a new caregiver. She seems very nice and sweet. I don't know that I've learned to much else about who she is. I hope things go well for her. It's so relieving to have someone else doing Jeff's care. I'm working about the same amount of hours, and might even be upping my hours a bit, but having someone else seems to release some of the pressure of responsibility. As Kathi has put it several times, it sucks when her and I are the only people in the county that are available to cath or do Jeff's care. Jeff has a new pool, which has at least partially motivated the extra hire. He's doing therapy and swimming in the pool for exercise. I think it's really great for him and am so glad that he's enjoying it.

Yeah, that's about enough for now. More later, I hope.